After two agonizing months of pulling out the drive in me (to blog), I have come to a conclusion that starting anew is a better option. I don’t want to force myself to write about anything interesting. From now on, I will blog just like the old times. I will write about anything and everything I want to express. I won’t have to consider being known for my site. I will just write.

Seeking inspiration while in the doldrums? Futile move. People in sluggish state don’t think of anything at all, so don’t expect a productive output.

I had 8 examinations in the past 2 weeks. I had the last one this morning and my brains are totally wracked. I think I’ll write later. Andy talked me into this. I won’t waste his effort.

I have my own dotcom but I care so little about it that I could not possibly care less. (in short: I couldn’t care less.) And I hate it. I have been into blogging since high school and I don’t understand why I have to lose interest in it now. I need a driving force. Char!

It is 2008. Year Enders have sprung out in Cyberspace like some sort of fad (Or maybe more like an SOP) that we should all get in to. But since I always digress, I have, again, failed to create my version of a graceful sayonara. And so I blog to give myself a chance to write one. It’s better late than never!

Here goes my late Year Ender. I’ll keep it short. I swear.

2007 served as a rough awakening for me. I have spent the first quarter of the 365 days fooling around and enjoying my freedom, and the next quarter absorbing reality and realizing the gravity of my deeds. That leaves me other half of the year fixing my messy, thrilling life.

It has been the toughest year of my life (as of now.) Believe me, I have gone through a lot and I have learned my lesson the hard way. But I am not sorry for myself nor do I feel remorse for landing into such situation. I am more than happy to be alive and I have a million reasons to be thankful to God.

But friends, please take heed of what the elders have to say and think before you act.

Thank you for 2007, I commit everything to memory.

Now I’m ready to rock 2008!

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Here is my Year Ender for 2006. It was quite melodramatic. Haha

We all keep a list of unforgettable events that are set in just like thumbnails in our life wall. Most of these might be our firsts: the first red mark on the report card, the first major violation committed, the first real kiss, the first alcoholic drink, the first sweet dance, and even the first day in office.

Turning 18, however, is seen differently. It is our first legal milestone in our life. More than just a thumbnail we print and paste, it is a frame-worthy moment overshadowing all the icons and images we have arranged meticulously in our wall. For sixteen can be sugar sweet and seventeen may be sexy, but only turning eighteen gives us the freedom do a host of things that we couldn’t do the day before! Eighteen is such a random and arbitrary age to divide life into two uneven halves. When you wake up on that special day, you will be entitled the right to drive a car, to vote, to get married, to drink and smoke (or not), to own a property, to make a will, to sign in contracts, and to be independent in many ways. At the same time, you start to be covered by the law’s consequences. You can now be sued and sent to jail instead of the juvenile home. In other words, being 18 gives us eligibility to jury duty. As they say in legal parlance, we begin to attain majority. Tough luck! No doubt Spider Man’s Uncle Ben got so famous for his line. ‘With great power comes great responsibility.’

This stage isn’t just a milestone that comes arbitrarily; it is a threshold we will all cross. Tonight, as I traverse the line that divides legality, I look back gratefully to what I have gone through and cross my fingers to what the real world has to offer. I hope I don’t screw up that bad.