I am about to put my head on the chopping board. And guess how I’m spending my remaining time? Surfing the internet, eating and slacking. What better way to panic! If I were a GC (grade conscious) person, I would have buried myself in books and acted as if the exams were the only thing that mattered in the world. Luckily, I’m still a normal one. I have recreational needs. Yes, you read that right. While on the eye of the storm (instead of preparing and getting this all done), I have the nerve to unwind and have fun.

I have four final exams on the 25th. Math 55, ES 21, ES 26 and ChE 2. How on Earth could I possibly get through that day? No amount of optimism in my body can suffice to neutralize this oh-i’m-gonna-fail feeling. I am feeling hopeless for two reasons: 1. I have a very poor memory and so you can’t expect me to memorize all the concepts, formulas and theorems. 2. My exams are continuous. So no breaks for me. Whew! For the information of everyone, Math 55 is the last in the Math series which is Calculus, ES 21 is Mathematical Methods in Engineering, ES 26 is Computer Programming and ChE 2 is Elementary Chemical Engineering. ChE 2 is a not-so-great subject. I’m telling you, it sucks bigtime.

Anyway, I am just bitter.

There, the truth has surfaced. My doom’s day is the day of my brother’s high school graduation. I remember reading his wishlist way back in January. I was on top of the list. All he wanted was a complete family on graduation. It frustrates me that I can’t be there on his very memorable day (of escaping the walls of Pisay). Andy and I even thought of saving for a plane ticket to Davao. Haha Futile move!

But then again, we will be attending the same school this June. Wahoo!

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Looking back.

Two years ago, I was on the same situation as my brother. I did and did not want to graduate. Pisay was a microcosm of a perfect world and I feared of stepping out. But hey! I lived.